By now, many of you know that the Wave of Light is a tradition for our family to remember Louie and other little ones who are no longer with us. We invite you to light a candle (or send "light" thoughts/prayers) from 7pm-8pm in your local time zone. October 15 is infant & pregnancy loss remembrance day and observed through the international wave of light.
This is my first year that I will be remembering Louie away from home as I'm currently in London. I was pregnant in London only weeks before his death and it's weird to imagine that version of myself. I remember sneaking in a touristy visit to see the Rosetta Stone, purchasing my fav Cadbury eggs for the Easter season, and seeing a play space of the Big Ben at the airport and thinking that I'd have a kid "the next time" I was here.
These days, I've been holding space for Louie by volunteering as a facilitator for HAND. It feels nice (albeit sad circumstances) to have a place where I get to tell his story, say his name, and he's the kid I get to talk about. Being his mom has given me sacred access to the broken hearted and I try to honor his life through those moments.
I hope you have a chance to send your "light" to those around the world today or at minimum, give an extra hug to your loved ones. I would do anything to get to hold my little guy one more time.